Pain

i got 1 more free tic to WOMAD tonite. but donno who to give it to..

sleepyhead. ankle and knee still in their craziness pain. walking up the stairs. sitting down. moving them is killing me. used ice. apply oitment.all not werking.maybe i do need my dad's therapy til i culd scream and shout. been there done that. and that is y im avoiding telling dear mom and dad bout this.

my right leg ligament so weak now ever since I stop running back in sec skul days.

*miss those glory days.*

ok im out. in pain. now. shessh.

Viva La Musica

tyme passed so fast this week. gd thing is I did not lost track of da days but Ruxta and my 2nd bro did. but still my 2nd brother confidence amused me. Period.

witout me knowin and spending too much attention on the plans for this weekend. it suddenly got all packed.FAST. Afta work tmr, planned to accompany Zulie to Retro Flea market at Cine. Followed by Speakeasy with Ruxta at the Glass Hall, Arts Museum at 6pm.

Speakeasy turn 1 yr old.

I tot that was all but NO...!!
Tot of going for this event but due to seriously being broke in both pockets, we gave it a miss. but all thanks to my sista in law, we manage to go for this event.

ehemehem.... for FREE!

Hurray to US. we will be heading down to WOMAD this saturday ryte afta Speakeasy.

Yeah-ness!! Its all bout La Musica this 26th Aug 06.

Green Eyed Human

Read Anna's entry bout Liars and cant go any further but to agree TOTALLY.
Some political issues been evolving arnd me lately. so far i've neva come across this kinda situation. (thank god for all the pretty ppl arnd me..*winks*)

but in the train home yesday made me realised, i was one of the 'victim' before without me realising it. Aside to that, i don really give a damn at all. I've put so much tot into this matter. At first, i tot it was just a pure dim-witted thing to do/say. But as this issue getting more and more dramatic, i feel lyke saying my part and make this stop.

To her..Why are you making things worst? Why are you trying your best to tell others that you both are nt in gd terms now?Why are you making that sympathetic face of yours so ppl wuld pity you instead of her? why are you nt admitting your bloody mistakes?why are you pointing the jealousy image on her when you are the one who is jealous of her?
ok there are more WHYs to my tots and wonders.. i can go on til i go bonkers. it don concerns me but am getting sick of this.

First you lie to her. Then getting all the facts wrong. Misunderstood by what she emailed you before. Now claiming ppl are ignoring you.when at the first place, you're the one making your own way, own place, own werld to sit in. Then now telling others that 'ada org jealous dgn saya kat sini'. Lyke what the Big F are you trying to do..

You've been asking ppl making them asking her this and that. can you please stop it. stop this DRAMA MAMA of yours. why not u ask me instead? I wuld be glad enuff to tell u the truth and open up your bigger eyes. why ask others when you can ask me who is closer to her now.

First of all, i don fake my Hi's and bye's wit ya. dat was all genuinely ME. if you are daring enuff come up to me and ask me, tell me. Then again you wont dare to ryte cuz you've seen I've done some tongue lashing before and it was ugly. and one more favor, please don tell her that 'jealous tgk you and ikin mesra..'arrrgghhh... *my head spinning hard!*

People with pure envious green eyed attitude can jolly well walk out from my door. Have your own life, your own thinking. your own principles in LIFE. don be a copycat bitch then telling the other part of your sympathetic story to someone else. it just pissed me off.....

Well. i've done my part by bragging it here and its enuff for me. for now that is....

(after 2 months of DRAMA)

showcasing

my personal favourite. DJ Craze. showcasing his routines.

history

once again im torn. torn into pieces. is history makin its come back? wateva it is. i don wanna be troubled by all these trivia matters. though it does concerns me deeply. however. im used to this and i think i shuld jolly well just ignore this. aint wanna get angry for nutin.

if things happen to fail. den its all fate.

im resting my mind, body and soul and i wuld not wanna dat issue to make a mess of me.

enuff said.

boring friday

ok wat a boring friday @ werk. all alone in this office. accompanied but banging of doors and voices coming out frm the Owner's room. partly thanks to the 'walls with ears' in another werd our rooms are lyke dividers. so not soundproof.

in short juz wanna say dat i am just bored and waiting for time to punch out.

feeling extremely sleepy today and i have no idea y. adding to the loneliness. making me feel worst. cant wait to meet up with the 2 gerls later. i need some enjoyment ppl afta a super slow draggy day here. as im typing this, hubby must be home sleeping his way to afternoon nap. jealous bole?

stomach was making loads of beats since i skipped lunch AGAIN. t-break time i went to get just a pathetic roti sardine coz i got only 70cents in my pocket. and now wow, waiting for time to hit the bowl... damn.

too much of being hungry at fers den 1 roti can make me wanna go...

in another werds its gd for me too. let it out before dinner. so meaning i can eat with much peace without having the interruption to go buang... =p

i think i gotta go now..No not punch out from werk its not 530 yet!! hahha...

Mapple syrup??

i'm having a weight issue now. damn fark.

gained pounds. out of a sudden i feel heavier. shit!

should i try the mapple syrup? just lyke beyonce. haha. nah im not dat crazy.

Trivia Trivia

it was a bad start of my Thursday. Expected dat i will be kinda tied up with stuffs to do.. proper time management was wat i need to put in place badly. 2 meetings today and tmr need to attend another commercial meeting since dear manager will be on leave. colleaque is also on leave tmr meaning i'll b having da office to myself. yeah-ness. cant wait to meet up with Tina and Yan tmr. i need some sugar and spice and everything nice. myself(sugar), Yan(spice) and ofcoz Tina who is everything also nice. =p

o well. someone gave me a ticklish issue and made me had a smurk on my face and til today im still having dat. Gosh. Im not trying to be mean but those remarks I overheard yesday morning alarmed me. Maybe I did overdress to werk sometimes but those remarks was unnecessary. ok maybe she was just commenting on my outfit to her guyfren. but to me it is call matching colour. my top was hot red and so was my shoes. "kasut dgn baju mesti nak kena sama colour.." to answer her "aku punya suka la"..

contradicting i must say. ironically ive notice her at werk and also we take da same bus to werk. but after hearing dat, she kinda make me laugh out even loudER. Maybe I need to purchase a full length mirror for her birthday. well enuff said.

Her eyes were often caught looking at me. and dont u wori too much gerl coz my eyes were on u too. Ok so do I sound as though im checking her out.. hmm gotta admit she does has long legs. *green with envy*

its 1756 now so this means i'll be packing my stuffs to head home real soon.

::Toodles::

Fast Forward

I wuld describe it as a fast week. Reason being, I was thinking in blank space for nearly 2 minutes figuring out wat day is today when I was in a meeting with the Commercial GM. I even back track the dates as I remebered well 12th and 13th. so I counted from there and to my surprise its already Wednesday. WooHoo.

Work load pretty much keeping me occupied especially today. I was rarely found sitting in the office and was pleased not entertaining many phn calls and emails. My day passed lyke a swift and soon it was time to leave. Punched out at 530 and head down to meet Ruxta at City Hall to collect his vinyls at Roxy.Head home afta dat and had late dinner at BK.

Though today's meet up was short but I lurve it. for once. no argument but hubby had just to entertain my selenge antics. Hehe. Sorry Hubby. But u lurve me the same ryte.... Muacks!

Aside to Emily, I tot i informed u last fri dat we will be meeting up this friday. Tina wanna go Arab Street, Al Majlis. Please confirm whether u coming or not.. else it might be me, tina and yantee only. If Yan cant make it, it will make 2 of us..sedih bole? Aniting sms me/Tina ok.

rewind the tape

12th August 06
Happy birthday to Hendri and Juhan. Hubby's 2 lil nephews. We culdnt make it for the birthday party that day due to the 'DA SHOW CASE II'. If we only knew that P.E. slot will be postponed to a later time, we wuld have gone home fers to have a feast and boi dat cake sure looks gd in the pics.

Updates on Da Show Case II. Its all gd except for the timing. All draggy and behind time but looking at the bright side, we got to see the illest breakdancers, (hot and some not hot)dancers and rappers. Manage to get some performance on tape. Including my lil cuz Rahmat's crew 602!. Well done boys for coming in 2nd.

PUBLIC EYEZ is back fo sho and they came back with a BANG! All hail to Smith, Aiman and DJ Ruxta (the new member to P.E.) and its official!The performance started off with total stomp of bass (thanx to da soundman. being sarcastic here and happen that he is my ex pri skul mate. name is Damien. ) Hubby did great startin off with the juggling routine. woohoo! Am so proud of my Ruxta. despite da total nervous breakdown, he kept it kewl and when it starts to feel all gd rhythmically, nervous was no wer to be found!!.

Show was hosted by Freaky Z also known as Fazli. Good luck to him coz he'll be representing S'pore for a festival in KOREA this 17th August 06.

Overall, the so called 'afterparty' was kinda happening. Guest performance on stage while on the floor, bboys and dancers were doing their thing. Suddenly it looks like i was in Ground Zero New York City. Finally afta being there since 5pm, it all ended at 1030pm. Hubby and me headed for supper. All nutin but smiles on our faces, talking bout the routines, the performance, upcoming plan and how we shuld celebrate the 7th year. : )
Nyte ended at 1215am. Nyte kisses and hugs were exchanged and da nyte was finally over.

13th August 06
It was my cusin's engagement day. Congrats to Fairuz and Rahinah for making your way into the zone of ENGAGED COUSINS.Nice deco and all. Nice environment with laughter, picture taking, kak ana's irriattin voice calling 'Sarah.. Little foot' and ofcoz my voice as loud as I can to get her to shut up and various antics by Erra, my chinese lookin cusin. She looks more lyke my own sister.

Fai.

My aunt handing the 10 pieces of $10 to Rahinah.

Erra Fazira and myself.

Us with Rahinah.

Rahmat and Maria with Rahinah.

We left his place at 5+, with the convenience of having my own brother staying bout 10mins away from Hubby's place was indeed helpful.Did i mentioned that both of my ankles were swollen on saturday and my right knee were hurt too. Aint wanna go to details coz partiallyit was my silly antics dat made this happen. So we took a lift home and on our way, I simply heard the cutest thing eva. my lil nephew made my day. Hiphop songs were thumping loud while his lil cute voice amazed me more. A 5 yr old lil boi singing to PCD Buttons, Chris Brown Gimme that and more. He is so cute and most of my frens said he's goodlooking. well I think so too. Spent the rest of the entire evening with Hubby and head home as soon as Im done watching Making The Band on MTV.

Fariz and Farisha.

14th August 06
Finally using laptop for work. It means, when loads of documents, programs, process flow chart need to be done ASAP, i gotta bring home work to do. Am I starting to sound like a workaholic person again.. *wonders* Maria used to use dat word on me though..

And now im so excited to meet GFF on friday. please make this date happen gerls. Asyik tak jadi je tau. We need to meet up for gossip and more gossips and hmm.. some intimate story sharing. woohoo!!!

ok im out.

7th next month

I would like to wish

Happy 6th years and 11th months Anniversary

to....

Narayumi and Ruxta

11th Sept, we will reach the 7th.

Lurve u hubby. loads. thanks for being such an 'egomaniac bastard' as times but deep down i know u rock my werld. and i admit i am still one 'son a bitch' fiancee who cant stop making ur heart boil. but u noe i lurve u so true. rite?

thanks for being der for me. pampering me at all times. all those hugs, kisses and intimate moments.

U are the best love... Muacks!

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I couldnt take it any longer. just gotta let it out and which i eventually did. my heart felt lighter. my mind clearer and partially i feel guilty for starting that bitchy conversation. somehow. i guess she agreed with me totally despite the numerous times i emphasised that i don pretty much favor the new person to the family. watever it is. she noes i got her back. and in 4 months time, she will be getting married.

thanks for listening to me dear cusin. and thanks for feeling my pain.

see u this sunday.... and so wat shuld i wear?.. hmm..

Champ at heart

Whateva happened last 2 nytes, you're still my champion at heart.
Lurve u loads hubby..

Put it behind you and now put Public Eyez forward for this saturday showcase.

Venue: Woodlands CC
Time: 2pm to 10pm
Admission Fee: $3

The RING

Finally today is the 8th Aug 06. Eve of National Day. I'm all excited+nervous. brought along a huge bag to work today cuz tot of heading straight to CCK Crib but due to sumthin important dat i forgot to bring. I've decided to take a half day leave head down North and up to West.

A big bag checklist:-

1. Outfit for tonite - checked

2. 6 invites to DMC - checked

3. Sony Cam Corder + charger + cables + batteries + tapes - checked

4. Nikon DG Cam + charger + battery + SD Card - checked

5. Toileteries + makeup kit - checked

6. Outfit for 9/9/06 - checked

7. Keys to CCK home - checked

ok all checked but like i said i forgot something important and its my ENGAGEMENT RING!i wore it this morning. but need to put some hair wax, so i took it off and put it on the bed. I was in a hurry. worrying dat i mite forgot to bring the important gadgets Ruxta wanna me to bring. I rushed to the living room. Rushed down and into the car and to the pickup point. As i stood waiting for the bus, i realised my right hand 4th finger feel naked.. and OHNO! i felt so lost without it. and this is my freaking 2nd time forgetting to put in on back. Feel shitty. Partly the reason is.. i have 2 engagement ring. The diamond one and the Engraved 'Ruxta love Narayumi' ring. (He has the other pair for that.) i often forgot to put either one on for werking days and wkends or meeting hubby day.. Arrghh so careless!!

so i just gotta head home at 1130. take a rest and head down to CCK before heading down to Zouk.still feeling shitty, lost and feel like crying.. hubby gonna call me a DooDoobird for this. being the eva silly, stupid fiancee.. when will i ever change?!

Counting down the Hours

Tomorrow night 8pm. The night I've been excited for. Invites are already in my hand. Matilda contact me for your invites. I'll meet u tmr nite before 8 outside Zouk.

Yeahness~ so so excited.

Afta party will be happening too.. DJ Cash Money please spin some gd music just like Zouk 2005. and Andrew - 'sifu', please add some Flava to the nite...

Old and Unwanted

Hubby got himself Dopod 818Pro on Friday. He is one happy DooDooBird now. =p Aside from that. He actually open up a blog in Friendster. Again that was a Friday morning surprise (at 7am) for me when I opened up my hotmail inbox and received the email.

Sidetrack issueWent to visit my parents on Saturday and as soon as I kissed my mom on her cheek. She let out some 'kontrovesi' to me. I was so alarmed by the remarks made by him and her. Then again, y is there a need to give that kinda remark back to my mom. And again. Y did my mom passed that remark to my dad. Well watever it is, im partly unhappy adding to the past things that she eva did. Well at least dat did not concern me bt somehow this time it really ticked me off HARD!

That remark made him feel so old and unwanted. Ppl don need his 'blessings' anymore. He's nt new to this mind you. He's been doing this for a very long time and VERY experienced. He's an old timer. 'Org Lama' do talk that way and its TRADITIONALLY done that way. Like sorry to say this. but FARK u bitch. You think you noe so much bout malay tradition and when u gave that kinda remark, i cant help it but shallow my pride and GO WATEVER!

I was told by mom dat we're on da same dialect. wat a waste coz since same dialect, things would be much easier in conversation made by him. arrgghh fark ar.

You all may not need his blessings and help but please keep that awful remark to yourself. Somehow his capability is being criticised. Lucky thing someone dared to tell my mom off like that. If you are brave enuff and say it to my farking face and gave me that kinda remark, I'm sure gonna give u a piece of my farking mind.

Now he felt hurt, feel so old and unwanted. Just like wen u have a new stuff, u somehow dump da old one aside. Watever it is, i don have anything against anyone coz they have been very nice, helpful. But I just somehow cant stand HER. Well, I'll just gonna sit here and watch wat more she can do to me or to other ppl. I don give a fark coz we're at da same age, same educational level. so don give a face like as though u earn millions. I have a farking career and glad im standing tall on my own. My house is not big but my family is. though 17 is a crowd but im loving it to bits.

This is my blog. If anyone reading this and wanna convey some unnecessary remarks to relevent ppl, please do so if you want to coz i don care. I speak and tell off wat i think is unfair and unnecessary. If you are not happy come speak to my face. I say wat i wanna say. Like i said.. I have nuthin against anyone not even him (someone close for almost my 23 life) and her or whoever. Just speaking out my mind coz im partially hurt. and i know mom and dad are hurt too... they are not saying anitin but i am. so if the young punks are unhappy with me, deal with me.

We are all very close, we have never had anything against each other coz nuthing concern us lately. But this time around. It concerns me... i may be the easy going silly girl u all have known well, but again ders an egomaniac side of me, the devilish, mutherfarking attitude in me... so accept it now!

I was so mad that i feel like beating up a hell of someone. Zulie, U told me u wanna punch someone rite. let it be me gf so i can do da same to u... =p

I lurve August

hectic week and obviously im kinda dead beat but hey weekend is here. and gosh. just last week i was packed with plans and goodness. it has not ended yet.

He's been practicing his 3min routine for the heats and ive been timing his routine. Being da eva so silly fiancee, i allowed him to 'scold' me while his hands was on da decks and throwing the vinyls on the bed. (not due to anger but he's suppose to put the vinyls at one side) so.. on the bed they went.. side track, he was pissed actually but he apologised as soon as its time for me to head home. Lurve u hubby!

I could feel his tension and pressure despite me just holding on to the timer and laze around like a bummer as usual.. its friday already and today gonna time his routine again. pressures up. counting down to the day. Zouk. 8th August. starts 8pm til late. Fudge rollers, Public Eyez, Matilda and lorry of gfs, other friends and myself will be there to lend him the support. Too bad his baby sis cant be there to witness this. (despite being in da guestlist. wasted!)

So if you don pretty much understand or interested in DJ/DJ competition, then just head down for the After Party by Flava with Andrew Chow and DJ Cash Money(US)..

As posted in the Bulletin by my DJ Ruxta:-

Ur beloved Dj/Turntablist is up battlin again, distime in a big event.. Come down to Zouk, 8thAugust at 8pm.. Please come down to support urhumble Dj.. Really need it and appreciate it.. Afterparty by "Dj CASH MONEY".. 3 Time WORLDCHAMPION..

Places to go/Things to do til 13th August

1. 5/8/06 - Visit mom and dad at pasir ris crib afta work

2. 5/8/06 - Mite go for Emty's bbqpit at pasir ris.

3. 6/8/06 - Kuda kepang show at Bukit Batok (12pm)

4. 6/8/06 - GFF meet up at Sher's place (6pm)

5. 8/8/06 - Singapore DMC DJ Competition (8pm til late) *must go!*

6. 9/8/06 - The Alley, Esplanade. Hiphop show. (5pm -9pm)

7. 12/8/06 - HipHop showcase. Woodlands CC.

(Public Eyez - Aiman, Shahrul & DJ Ruxta will b showcasing)

8. 13/8/06 - My Cusin's Engagement Day. Fai aka Phatso.

events after events... but hey its been awhile i do this... FUN FUN FUN!