yestday evening gathering was worth plan for. ok. usuali tina is the planner. bt tmr. she'll be leaving us. for Doha. *sob*


i planned to have some quality time with her before the rest joined in. knocked out from werk at 430 exactly was worth it. met her. had dinner and talks. its been awhile having the girl to girl talk. soon. Yan and Usop joined in. followed by Sher, Apid and Amy. the 5 gerls took neoprint just like wen we were back in poly days. 2-3 yrs ago.


everyone were there at liat towers. though some were late yet appreciated. coz it was meant to be a gathering for tina. tmr. either 11pm at tina's plc den 12midnite at T1 to bid tina gdbye. 5 will become 4. I feel like crying now. Nevertheless. I'm glad dat i had some special moment with her.


To Qistina...

I would like to wish u all the best for ur future. If it was ur dream to be independant and live ur life to the fullest. to fly and go to places. to explore new things, new environment and new friends.. well. ur dream has come true. I will definately miss u. everything bout u. though our friendship started only 2-3 yrs ago. Yet knowing the fact that u're leaving saddens me.. Do take care of urself. Anitin. please do email me. wuld reali love to hear from u when u're there. Love u loads..


Will be missing u,
Kakak

had a blast wit Maria yestday evening. been awhile. we gotta hang out soon. and yes. hope to see u at zoukout. finally get to meet up the belo Farina in LT. rindu amat sama dat cewek giler. farina has neva change abit. i swear. and her hair. wah.. mau challenge gue eh? makin blonde nmpak. well. thanks for the discounted hot cocoa Rin. see u at zoukout too..


back to me and maria. well. we talked alot. from girls to boys. yes. maria is HOTTER now. and damn fark u boys who ignored her last time and now she's hot u wanna ask her out. wrong bad move. coz i obviously told my lil cookie. they are just up for alil something juicier. when at da fers place. y be ignorant?! Yasin has always accepted the way u are so. be happy wit Yas. u both deserve each other. for the other boys. last warning. from the breakdancer to indie pop and band member. u can all kiss her boobs goodbye!!


this week. left with few days. Nur Qistina will be leaving us for Doha. Joining the Qatar Airlines. Bah! I was planning wit Yan for a surprise meetup with Tina and the gang. bt sadly the rest did not reply me. bt some cant make it and some CAN. well. eventually. i wanna sms Yan when i accidentally sms TINA!!!! OMG! Ok. aku kental..!! Tina laughed and me and said im kental ofcoz. Yan again said. 'kau memang kental..' for the fers time. i actually spoiled da whole surprise thingy which was usually Amy's job to do so back in poly.. haha. and so Tina was being sportaneous and mentioned she will act surprise. hehehe. well. hope to see her and the some of us this wed. this will still go on with or without the rest. i badly need to meet her else i'll be crying at da airport this friday. i need some quality time with her. after all. some says. me and her look-alike. which we don think so. =p

LURVE U gerl. muacks.

gonna miss this gerl loads. arent she pretty. damn she's hot.

my cough has WORSEN. thanks to the long hours of sitting during the seminar. plus eating too. bt i sure had few ice waters to cool down my throat.

overall. the trip was ok-la-kn. bt best of all. that sure made my last day was that. i bought 2 batik shirts. one of my dad and another for my future father in law. : )
have yet to give bapak. despite him not liking BATAM, he gave me the blessings to attend the seminar there. and so i bought for him something. as for future dad in law, he has always wanted one since raya time for his perjumpaan hari raya. and since i saw one. i decided to get it. im so glad he loves it. am i trying to win his heart..? nah. im just a nice young lady.. : ) *am im rite dear..? hehe. im sori i didnt get u anything. hope the kacang-s are ok for u..* Muacks.


was dead beat. dat i slept in da ferry til i reach SG. slept til 11plus at home since i reach at 7plus. and i was all over the moon when i saw hubby rite infront of my doorstep. we had supper and more of my non stop rantings. chit chatting non stop. well. i bet hubby misses that since i was away for a day.. : )


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Sunday. 26 nov 06. Bolja Laron had a showcase at Yew Tee. This is for a lil boy who baru sunat. and his parents decided to make it all grand. with foods ala buffet, did it under the void deck and ofcoz kuda kepang by Bolja Laron. Its been awhile since i attend one so i did yesterday and took some pics. A newpaper and straits time reporter were der. at least it can help to promo Bolja Laron.


Hopefully 2007 will be a better year with more showcases. And just an hr ago, hubby's sis in law, Kak Julie smsed me and told me to grab a copy of newpaper coz happen to have a side view of my dear hubby.. hehhe. so i cant wait to get a copy... You may wanna click on the Bolja Laron - 26th Nov under the awesomeness header on the right.

below are pics of Mr DJ not wit his turntables.







that's him under the Barongan.. and thanks hubby for making that scary sound while standing infrnt of me. thank god i kept cool. *winks* bt remember when we get married. i don want the big barongan ok. seram..!! i nak 2 burung instead... lurve u..

this week passed lyke a breeze. work load were plenty. and tmr attending seminar in batam. i'll be back on Saturday afternoon. after this week. i swear there'll be more events after work. plus i realised. next week.. :-


28/11/06 - 7pm - Velvet underground. Launching of Jay-Z's Album

1/12/06 - 830pm - Ngee Ann Poly - DJ Ruxta and DJ SY having a showcase

2/12/06 - before 2am. Need to be at the airport. Sending Tina off. *SobSob*


so more events after next week. soon. it will be end of 2006. den come 4th January where i'll be a yr older. Wah! So fast lei..


ok im out. Hubby's sleeping wen he is suppose to layan me. kata rindu. bt sleep. tmr im leaving u lei hubby... wake up! ok. imma gonna wake him up now.. Take care bloggers...

when they stared at u as u walked passed them or walking opposite their reaction.

followed by more stares and glares. walking with
their head up;nose so high. been lyke this for few months. the fact dat i may nt be the friendliest person here. yet. i do acknowlegde some ppl here.
maybe there was a misunderstanding between them and my close gf here. which ended up dragging me into it too. maybe the stories they heard made them behave that way.
however. like i mentioned. i may nt be the friendliest person here. bt when u gave me that glare and farked up attitude as i stood infrnt of u.

u began to brag bout the dragonboat team u are in. well. gd for u to be in the DB Team. im nt least jealous bout it at all. i have far more projects to do here.
don walked and looked at me and her like as though we did u wrong.

and after all that. now. suddenly. ur sis emailed my gf. den u emailing me and her. wanna be frens with us now?. after all that farked up attitude. seriously. its very arkward.

we don even give a damn. bt wad happen yestday strike me. y the both of u suddenly walked passed us and looked down. come on. i donno u. so why bother. and today the emails..

wow wow wow.. for now me and gf. are just gonna acknowlegde. im not accusing. bt somehow we smell something really fishy.

the fact that they used to be close to one of the gf here. bt due to some reasons. closest gf and this girl no longer in gd terms. and now these 2 gerls wanna get close with us.

FISHY... well hope don mind my bitchy attitude today. well. despite the things u did. i don care. i still replied to ur email.. am i nice or wat..?! hahaha.. =p

Happy 26th Birthday to my 3rd Sis-in-law.

i think i did a pretty bad job last nyte. nonetheless. im just glad that its all done and over with. nutin can beat the feeling of 'done-and-over-wit'. period! once again i mention. i did a pretty BAD hosting last nyte. all lesoon learnt. no doubt.
trust me. i gotta brush up my malay AGAIN. use to be gd at it. and now. simply FLOP.


apart frm my bad hosting. i actuali received a remark from a colleague telling me i can quit my present job and try auditioning for Suria. haha. CRAP at 7am. my head is spinning. im walking lyke a zombie. im sleepy. tired. most prob. dehydrated. a few days of this made me wanna salute the colleagues/acquaintances here, who juggling with 2 jobs and parttime skuling. so its like. 730am-430/530pm, skul from 7pm to 10pm den work at nite from 11pm to 4am. reach home. rest for awhile. and get ready to go to work. especialli for those taking company transport. have to take the bus at 6am. reach work at 640am. den yup. its goes like dat EVERYDAY. seriously. they are SUPERMEN. ask one of them how he cope with tis. and he simply said. "its all gd when u think of money. coz i need it badly." and my reply was. "aku dah biol nie. kepala dah berat nie.."

event done. next. batam. seminar for 2 days. this coming fri and sat. 2 days out from da office just means i will have EMAILS flooding my inbox when i return on monday. therefore. i've decided to come to work on Sunday to clear my pending stuffs. and so ppl said im workhaholic? to me im nt. just someone who urgently needs to get things done. : )

gotta go. time to continue my work. once again. im forcing the head to stay up and nt down = sleeping mode and eyes to open wide else again = sleeping mode..

I miss maria. PERIOD!

she don lyke to take perfect pictures. she loves taking silly faces which turn out well. just like this. so cute. and im missing her so much. she didnt reply my smses when i was down.

PS: Maria, i hope u take a tyme to read this and ring kikin soon.

i hope to see u after my Batam working trip next week. muacks!

one system demo session down. one more 330pm meeting to go. for today atleast. darn. throat getting sore. bt feelin alil beta. for now. let the workload occupy me. no laughter.no smiles. bt let the stress of work be my companion.

enuff said.

im not in a gd shape now. work loaded up at work. deadlines to be met. more projects. meetings. demanding endusers/requestors. making me pissed off each time. too much to do. to think. work related. non work related. all jumble up. seriously i can feel my head is heavier. my eyes getting hot. my body aching. throat being a farking bitch. coughing nonstop. im feeling weak.
mentally and physically.


honestly. my mind all messed up ryte now. now that im doing this updating. reason. i cant farking think in order to proceed in more coding or whatsoever. i cant think properly. even a simple statement. Another phone call. my voice getting sore. it has gone bad to worse. soon WORST. I need a break. please i need one.


im nt into more argument now. im just taking things slowly. ill give in. just not to make myself more stress. aniting ppl say. i will say.. "ok. i will look into it. i'll revert back to u soon.." in a sore weak voice...


head becoming heavier now. arrggh. help!

wad wuld happen today if u had taken it away from me?

wad hav i done da other day and til today haunting me really hard..

all those questioning since that day giving me the chills...

is everything gonna be ok dear..? i asked him..

emotions in me culdnt be expressed out last nyte...

felt lyke crying out loud.. bt i cant..

cant put myself to sleep til i said some prayers quietly..

problems that was being brought up..

who else to blame if not ME..

u culd relate to the song...which i tot so too..for ur endurance for this relationship nt to fail

u hav done nuting to hurt me.. bt ive done it all wrong to hurt you again and again..

u have done so much for me.. and all i see was ur mistakes and ill doings..

u deserve someone beta den me.. bt u choose to stay...

Te Amo..

who can be the best bully? almost all my 23yrs. the only person. for once who wont stop disturbing, teasing, bullying me. will be none other than my 10yrs apart of age, my 3rd brother.

Yes. This man. who once forgotten to fetch me from kindergarden. due to his oversleepness.mom reached home and found him still soundly asleep. wat a pig. from the 'alarm' mak gave him. he woke up and went to look for me. and yes. an idiot i was. i followed my fren home. i know my way hm bt her dad so fierce. so yup. slenge as eva. ikut. bodohs betuls.

but thankfully. dear brother managed to find me. haha. reached hm. mak still crying. hehe. hey. im her precious ok. the only daughter. til today. abg still remember his 'mistake'. the only reason he made mak cried. coz before me. mak dotes on him. bt when i came along. she gotta dotes on us both.

as i grew older. i learnt few things from him. at pri 1. i was listening to rock loud music. thanks to abg. wer i began to take his quiksilver bag and use to skul. his walkman. his big watch. his silver rings. his bands. wateva that can fit. i will take. and eventuali forget to put it back. nxt thing. 'kena marah la..' =p

when i was 14. i began to be rude to him. we often fought for the phn. reason. that was wen i had my 1st puppy love. Haha. at the age of 15, i was so rude to him. since he was not home often. was engaged. often stayed over. when he came home. he made alot of comments on me. for once house was peaceful. with just me and my parents. bt that nyte. he had to ruin everything. dad was out for kenduri. lucky for that. but then it gave him the chance to shout at me. coz i shouted at him fers. mak as usual. wont say a thing to us. and my last remark. nearly broke my head. YES. coz he threw a vase. nearly hitting me. bt i manage to close the door so fast. lucky for that. else. kepala aku bocoh la.. i locked my door. cried under the bed. and slept there. dad came home and mak told him we fought. next few days. we didnt talk to each other.

til one wkend. family gathering. i was resting my head on mak's thighs. he came home from work. and on purpose rested his head on the other side of mak's thighs. we stared. bt no choice. dad and 2 elder brothers were there. den i said.. "mak sayang abg. tak sayang ikin..." he kept quiet. til mak said.. " mak sayang semua.. " i forgot wat happen next. bt i knew we both were back as per normal. laughing together.

dec 1998. abg finally got married. that very day. when he salam everyone. coz he wont be staying with us animore. i cried. salam his hand. and continue crying. telling him that my life will be boring without him. he then told me he will visit on wkends. and so each wkend i will wait for him and wife to come home.

now.2006. abg happily married with 3 kids. and he is still the same man i know who loves to joke around. and now. he is still teasing me. only now. he will make his wife join in too. mak still the same. will allow him to make fun of me. yes. abg made fun of me. even wen my frens come over. and infront of my fiance. bt all i can say. i love him. though 10 yrs is far. yet. he's young at heart and it makes me happy. : )

dinner tmr.7pm.with GFF. yeahness!! been awhile we 5 sit together and rant girlish matter.ok more like bitching session. on da usual day to day thing. bf issue. some inner sharing information and learning. subjected to the 3 letter word. *winks*

a day to go and the 5 of us. will be 1 once again. hurray to tina for making this works. aniway aside to the happiness. in a few weeks time. tina leaving for Doha. so this GFF gathering is all worth it.

and aside from these 4 babes. share,amy,tina and yan. im definately missing Maria. that 30mins of fast ranting during raya was not enuff. we gotta meet soon. probably before kak farah kahwin ok. make it mid dec. muax!!

honestly im not feeling quite well this week. 1 week to go before the Perjumpaan Hari Raya. im totally nervous. i hope everything goes well. for now its preparation is KILLING me. *help*

Happy 22nd birthday to my another GF.. Share Bear... Love u gerl. see u this thurs ayte. Muacks. and i miss u so much....

Happy 22nd Birthday to my gf. Amelia. May Allah bless you with the wonderful things in life and be in a pink of health at all tymes. Be happy with ur family, friends and love ones.

And GFF meeting up on the 9th Nov ayte. Seriously. please be there. all 4 of u.muacks.Much love!

How to make a Nurul

Ingredients: 1 part intelligence 3 parts brilliance 3 parts ego

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of fitness and a pinch of salt. Yum!

On 29th October was Hubby's 24th Birthday.. I was kinda upset with myself for putting up too much anger and stress to him. I admit I do think of myself sumtimes.Raising my voice for no reason. Til he decided to spend his bday alone at hm while i was out wit my family jalan-in raya..


but end of the day. after the 10th house, I decided to give him a visit. afterall. im his baby. 10th house happened to b my 3rd bro's place. who stays near his place.though the time was short. I spent the most of it. looking into his eyes and i sure noe that i have a belated dinner to give.


Monday. we met after work. Went to Swensen in CausewayPoint for his belated Bday dinner. but poor dear having a tummy ache since he took his lunch at werk.went to GNC and bought some stuffs and headed home..


Tuesday. hubby was on MC til wednesday due to Gastric Flu. must have been some food he had during lunch. I accompanied him through the nyte.I was suppose to put him to sleep. bt ended up i dozed off not him.. I headed home at 1030pm but seeing him made me sad. kissed him gd nyte and went off.


Now im glad he's feelin much better now. and happy that he'll be jamming again this Friday with DJ SY for their routine on 1st Dec. Ngee Ann Poly.


i love u hubby. im sori for everything. afterall. u are the only one who can put up with my moodswings. and nonsence plus the silliness and stupidity.Muacks!!!
Happy birthday again..!!