This entry was typed out last nite. 19th December 06

i read ur blog. and i just return home from ur crib. i decided to give u a surprise visit afta im done getting my baju for this sunday. and i did. i went on with my plan. despite the non stop rain, i took the train from Paya Lebar to CCK just to meet u for awhile.


I bought u ur fav cookies. i donno if u lyke it. u don seem happy at fers as u were having ur dinner. i still insisted dat u eat ur cookie before bedtime. i looked into your eyes and i see pain. the reason u've been quiet since last nite. i culd see that u're in pain and there is somethin bothering u. i talked to u. looking at ur face even when u did not look back at me. our eyes did nt meet. bt again. i hugged and kissed u and im reali sorry for everything. i don blame u. i blame me. myself. i realised. ive been overpowered with work and plans. with frens and cusins. lacking the time spend with u.


im sorry hubby. i reali do. im glad to have met u tonite. eventhough, der wasnt much conversation being uttered. still. im contented. to have u. as my fiance. im glad u walked me to hail da cab. and im glad u kissed me back. and im glad u appreciated my short presence and da cookie i bought u.


im sorry i didnt reply to ur msg as i was out helping my sis in law to wrap a gift. i called u back bt to no avail. u then called back but u told me u were ready to sleep. i culd still hear pain in ur voice again. I then wished u gd nite and we hung up.


i wont get to meet u til sat. honestly. im gonna miss u dear. i just wanna u to noe dat im sorry and i love u. loads. muacks.