3rd Jan 08

it was a sad news for me. But ALLAH swt is great. beyond wad happened, there will be a blessing. I hope she is fine, mentally and physically.

I cried as i think back again. There was once i mentioned. enuff for now as the number are growing. All i wanted was for my lil ones in near future. I didnt noe things will happen eventually. Kurniaan Allah swt. Who can eva stop that. But wen things were meant to be, it just didnt turn out right. and as i heard da news. i cried. thinking was it my fault??


4th Jan 08


Happy birthday to me. Im a quarter century now. wow! how time really flies. tho most are nt ready to hit this number. im glad i welcome it calmly. with open mind, i wished myself Happy birthday as I wake up in the late morning. gosh. it feels gd to be on leave frm work especially on your bday. *smiles*

its amazing how i decided to celebrate it wid my parents. with my 3rd bro and his pham over at his crib. i bought my own bday cake, put the candles, listen to my parents, sis in law, 2 nieces and nephew, maid and my fiance singing for me. bro was late as he went out to buy satay for us. seeing the joy of that 3 kids brings me nuting but true happiness. they watched me blow out the candles, cut the cake and they waited anxiously to receive the choco cake. my pri 1 nephew even did a party hat out of a exercise book paper, coloured it and put it on my head. so sweet of him.

the normal laughters as soon as bro came hm from wk. we sat and had dinner. and soon it was time for me to leave. 10pm exactly. we left the plc. holding his hands, having him by my side is all i wanted. and i love him for being him.

thanks dear for willing to share my special day wid my family.

while tmr will be a separate affair. its beach time baby! woohoo!!!