i was suppose to be in da office @ this tyme. but i decided to say "go to h*ll" to my work for a tyme being. i so need a freaking break to this body. ok ppl lets say "like finally!!"..

and finally today i'm heading down to geylang to get the instant flour to make cookies for raya and get our baju raya. on a different note, will be goin der wid ruxta and his parents. yeahness. no train rides today. future daddy-in-law is driving. :)

red or black. red or black. decision decision.. Hmm..

o yeah and gonna get the Project Pop cd. that Metal Vs Dugem song is so stuck in my head. thanx alot eh DJ Ruxta. =p

enjoy ppl.

Deep down i think i know how he feels. though all bad things had happened and still happening now, he will pray for her safety. no matter wad, tears and more phn calls being directed to him, he will still say NO. but i noe bapak means well. he does. but again its all boils down to ego and pride of a brother. Period.

Bt i was having another view if dad were to say YES. eventually, raya will be totally different tis yr. bt then again. knowing dad, he wont. so my hopes and dreams to have them all together. back together. happy together like 10 years ago, once again is just a dream that wont come true for now. y was i not surprised wen mak was thinkin da same as i was. mom and daughter. think alike..

now dat this fails. next will be on my bigday. if i cant have all. i would just love to have my boys around. together wid their partners. we all have grown up and not knowing who is who animore. things change, we change. we don even say HI anymore nor even smiles. If bapak objects to my decision, i guess i will walk around wid another solution to make this happen. my only request for my big day.

i hope she is doing fine there. with all da supervision by others. sorry he cant be der. he don wanna be der. but trust me. trust him. u are in his prayers. how bad things were, i noe bapak has a gd heart. its just how ppl manage his feelings. dats all...

Amin.

Last saturday, my family gathered and have iftar @ wdlands crib. Usually we do it on the 1st weekend of ramadhan but due to some unforseen circumstances, it was postponed til last sat. loads of food and we managed to surprise my lil nephew, Faris. He was so happy to see the cake. It was an advance celebration for him though, that is y he was even more surprised. :) we all know he will grow up and break loads of girls heart. come on look at him.. at this young age, young girls like to come up to him, but he simply ran away. he is just shy...


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who says money cant buy happiness?

well i used to have said that money CANT buy happiness but then again we do need money to survive. seriously, its not a joke wen i finally decided to invest my cpf last nite. the amount of money to be use for medical fees, old age, retirement and etc. oh and not forgetting getting my own place after marriage.

somehow for now, i can finally breathe fact that ive done that. i do see a gd point doing it and i advice who has not done it, to do it. because starting next yr, cant invest in ur cpf anymore. its like Now or Never. If you would want me to recommend my advisor, please do feel free to inform me ok. drop me a tag or email or sms me.

Besides that, I decided to take up something I neva tot I would do. Its still grey now however, I will do my best to achieve this. Hopefully this will help much in saving more money for my big day. Insya'allah.

This year, Ramadhan feels so different. for me atleast.
and I believe Syawal will be the same too.
The tension, the anger, the grudge, the disrespectful.......
I do not know how to put in words.
But I believe, I'm immuned to the situation.
I hope for the better. for them in near future.
I hope this year, they will be celebrating it in a new place.

but stilll the anger lives.. how will the future be...
we were all once a happy family.....

it is still too early to say nor predict.. assumptions are all im doing rite now.
shall wait for the day.. the day of new freedom together with separation..........

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Side track..

Happy 14th Birthday to my niece, Erna Natasha and Happy 12th Birthday to hubby's nephew Izwan.

and not forgetting...

An advance 23rd birthday to my home bitch.wahaha. the sizzling hot "i love my hair" Tina. Lurve u babe.. Muacks!!

We had a simple dinner together at Earle Swensen and walked around the huge mall (Vivocity), donut and coffee time while chilling and head home.

mine - Chicken Delight
his - Prime Ribs


Chocolate Cinnamon and Hot Cocoa

Despite my heels are not 'meant for walking' (killing me), i had a great time spending time wid him. it was afterall our 8th yr anniversary. (smiles)....

.LOVE.

Happy 8th Years Anniversary to us. Ruxta & Narayumi.

Gonna meet him up lata and just have a simple dinner together.

I love u so much dear.

Kimi o ai shiteru

she is coming back this friday for just a few days before she starts flyin.

gonna buka puasa together wid her and her family this weekend.

8 years in the making. sept 11. love u. Ruxta.

damn.!! i only get to noe it today. when i opened my inbox. oh shit. 1st its Ninja aka DJ KoFlow and Garuda. 2nd. its at Cafe Del Mar. no! and i wont be there. SIGH.

i used to be active back in primary and secondary school days. running has always been my best sport.i would happily sign up my name for almost every event for annual sports day.

Winning has always been the best moment. Bringing home medals/trophies, had always been a part of every sports day. They are afterall my achievements.

I've never felt that way for nearly 5 yrs. But recently, I was on top of the world wen i came in 3rd for the Women's open KRC Annual Cross Country last sunday. it was my 3rd time running for my company and finally i managed to pull myself thro and came in 3rd. Though i was not the 1st nor 2nd, im happy enuff that I conquered all odds, and targeted to be in the top 3. Finished the 3.2km in 24mins.

I was so happy that I called up my mom to tell her the gd news, smsed zulie and ofcoz showed hubby my trophy while he was still in bed that morning. :)

I may not be pretty, sexy, wealthy, smart and more.. but when it comes to sports, I will do almost anything for it. Especially after winning, nuthin can beat that feeling. I may suck in beauty contest (i entered 3 beauty contest this yr)... bt at least i got one trophy this year that reflects so much of me!!

my winning smile with my trophy and cash.

WHAT
FreakyZ presents Family Affair, another show brought to you by 65 & Hope, showcasing 'families' that have been around in our local hiphop circuit. The first installment will see Da Fam who are currently working on the release of their anticipated compilation and also XS.1 who recently released their well-received compilation, 'School of X'scape Artiste'.

With special performances by Yun aka PD (WDC), Sleeq (BS) and The Rebel Scum (TRS) straight from Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, this is definitely an event not to be missed.

The show will be hosted by funnyman FreakyZ himself. So if you love hiphop or even local music then spread the word and show some love for our local talents.

WHEN
Date: 1st September 2007
Time: 7.00pm sharp

WHERE
Venue: Playden, The Arts House

FEE
$8 pre-sale, $10 at the door
(Early bird gets a free mixtape!)

For more information, visit the following sites
www.myspace.com/65hope (add us up!!)
www.rsg-online.com

Contact point:
65hope@gmail.com

*Pre-sale tickets are available at Speakeasy, The Art Museum on 25th Aug 2007. Or you could also email to book the tickets. Seeya there! :)