Nervous

I'm beginning to get nervous and scared each time I heard couples getting married this yr or next yr already having their own place. Seriously it does freaks me out. Fact is the 2nd important thing afta marriage is own crib.

Its like a plan. Written down in permanent black ink in my head.

We are planning to look for a place end of this year. If it was for a newly built hse, we don't mind. Thing is we are looking for a resale flat. Afterwhich, resale flat means loads of cash to be surrender. Which adds up more headache to us.

For the past few months, I heard friends getting hitch soon and they are paying quite a number of kaching for weddings on certain things. Like the last one was a $2388 wedding ring. wow! Its damn farking nice no doubt. Next I was wondering how come can fork out alot for it, then I found out parents are sponsoring the wedding. Only need to buy is wedding ring.

Tak ke GEREK tu?!

Then some other friends too mostly were sponsored by parents. They only need to buy certain things on their own. So I don find a reason why not they splurged for the best for deco, andaman and more rite. Lucky them. Seriously. Honestly I envy them.

I'm not saying that I'm unlucky. It just means I have to work harder. We have to work harder for our wedding, future home and future family. Yea we are totally on our own. We do not have a working parents, especially for mine.

They are resting at home, and I don see why must they pay for me afta all these years. Dad invested so much for me to studies. Tho he is a strict dad, he never really scold me for wad I've done. (tho sometimes I have to lie to get out of it) Mom is the best mom. She cooks and all. Take care of us and hear this.. my mom nags but never scold or shout at us.
The most patient woman I've known. I know she has alil savings wanting to pay for my gubahan, sireh dara, bunga paha and bunga rampai. So thoughtful of her, but I would rather that she keeps that money for herself.

Finally tmr I'm meeting my aunt to discuss with the deco stuffs. Hope she gets the idea of how I want it to be. *prays hard*