Last year in the morning of Hari Raya Haji, she left all of her loved ones in this world. Honestly I did not receive your text msg bout the news til u text me the next day.
I was sorry.
Many things happened last year, especially few months before her departure..
Tho Im not someone close to your family but I've known so much like Im part of it.
I understand the sorrowness you are goin thro..I've heard before that you hate her. But I know its just a remark you said out of anger. Each time you said bad things bout her, I would tell you off straightaway.
She was your flesh and blood. No matter how bad things were, she was someone VERY important to your life.
I remembered last 2 years, you went to look for her everyday afta work, tho you were fasting during Ramadhan, you neva fail to look for her whereva she could be.I was glad when you told me she came back. Then few weeks later, I heard another not so good news.
After which, another few months came with another set of sad news.
Now all these had already past. Lets not look back and think too much about it.
You asked me when's the day and I told wad's the date.. and this is the first time I hear you said that you miss her. 1st time I heard you really do miss someone deeply. I donno how you are feeling now but if I put myself in your position, I would definately breakdown and cry thro'out day and night. When I read your text msg, I stopped and had a slight tear in my eyes.. it makes me ponder what will happen to me when she leave me.
I could express much thro the text msg, but I hope wadeva I said makes you feel beta gdfren..
Sedekahkan Ibu mu Al-Fatihah esok, doakan agar Allah SWT mencucuri roh ye. Amin.
Sambil ucapkan "Selamat Hari Ibu" pada ye.
She will be very happy to see your commitment as a son and eldest brother. You have done well all these years. No one will really understand your feelings and wad you are goin thro. All i could do is listen to wadeva you have to say each time.
You have done well my goodfren.
Here I would like to say to my own mom..
"Mak, I'm sorry wheneva I raised my voice at you. I often take your kindness and patience for granted since I was lil. Im so spoilt and take advantage of my status in the family for granted. You know how much I love you. I really do. Each time I kissed you on your cheek when I came to visit you and when I wanna go back. I missed your cookings and I thanked you for cooking our favourite dished wheneva we dropped by. Thank you for loving Arin like your own son. I know you are excited to have a son-in-law this time. :) Wheneva I sat alone and think wad will happen to me if its your time to leave, I can neva imagine how I will react and live my life. You are my everything. Thank you for loving me so much and still take me like your lil baby girl tho I'm all grown up now. Thank you for all your sacrifices you have done for me. I love you Mak. I do. Muacks!"
I would like to wish all Mothers a Happy Mother's Day.
Without you moms, there will be no us.
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