and so im blogging here. in the comfort of my own home. i culd feel the wind blowing in. it looks like its gonna rain anytime soon. gd luck to those goin to Marina or Sentosa. sorry ya. no offence. im spending nye in my own hood. :)

just gonna go der and support some frens performing. nt sure wads next afta dat. prolly just chilling. and dance to Soulja boy/Crank that Spongebob/G-slide. haha. well wadeva makes us happy. better still makes me a happy nunu. *huge smile*


i gotta admit i wasnt doing any work frm 0730-1630. no kidding. had lunch wid my IT colleagues. was fun playing games and all. its like being a kid once again. grabbing each other forming the number of ppl in a grp thingy. gosh. i cant believe its da 31st today. time flies damn fast huh....


my aim for 2008.


1. plan well for my big day. im already looking for the best outfit a bridal can provide. nt sure if i shuld head down to arts house tmr for Chinta Wedding and Theme Photography Gallery.


2. Learn to relax. Yes really go for short getaways.


3. But most importantly, to return to HIS arms. Insya'allah.


oh ya. plus be happier, look younger (Despite im left wid 5 days before my 25th bday), toner body, back on my running shoes and be da most loveable fiancee.. :)


so ppl. enjoy the rest of 2007. and welcome 2008 wid Al-fatihah. Thank Allah swt that we are still alive in this world.

Amin.

Happy New Year!!

Flip to the new calendar baby!

and so im blogging here. in the comfort of my own home. i culd feel the wind blowing in. it looks like its gonna rain anytime soon. gd luck to those goin to Marina or Sentosa. sorry ya. no offence. im spending nye in my own hood. :)

just gonna go der and support some frens performing. nt sure wads next afta dat. prolly just chilling. and dance to Soulja boy/Crank that Spongebob/G-slide. haha. well wadeva makes us happy. better still makes me a happy nunu. *huge smile*

i gotta admit i wasnt doing any work frm 0730-1630. no kidding. had lunch wid my IT colleagues. was fun playing games and all. its like being a kid once again. grabbing each other forming the number of ppl in a grp thingy. gosh. i cant believe its da 31st today. time flies damn fast huh....

my aim for 2008.

1. plan well for my big day. im already looking for the best outfit a bridal can provide. nt sure if i shuld head down to arts house tmr for Chinta Wedding and Theme Photography Gallery.

2. Learn to relax. Yes really go for short getaways.

3. But most importantly, to return to HIS arms. Insya'allah.

oh ya. plus be happier, look younger (Despite im left wid 5 days before my 25th bday), toner body, back on my running shoes and be da most loveable fiancee.. :)

so ppl. enjoy the rest of 2007. and welcome 2008 wid Al-fatihah.

Thank Allah swt that we are still alive in this world.

Amin.

Happy New Year!!

instead of goin to the Lab for floetry. we decided to juz walk around and chill. frm marina to suntec to haji lane to Mosi Cafe. bus to town. heeren. to borders. and home sweet home. we took pics. its been awhile we do dat but for a special reason today coz its here. oh pink shutter.

i like.

*winks*

on another note. i would love to have this for my 25th bday. anyone? wahaha.

actuali i asked him for this. but seriously i was just kidding.

my next addiction.

LOMO LC-A+

It was a mad show on 23/12/07 by Freaky Z. madness.coolest.for 2007. i took few pics only.

will upload soon.

Today, will be floetry at 6pm. and 31st will be at Wdlands.

And ya.. shades have arrived yesterday. can’t wait to get hold of it. Lets go ‘boria’ with the shades guys.. Same design different colour. Yessa!!

Some wishes I would like to make here..

1. Happy advance bday to my bestie, Zulie. Tomorrow she will turn 25. Thanks for all your support this year.. for being there and just be yourself. The one who won’t pujuk me when I cry but simple just ask me.. “nie apasal pulak..” and u will let me just talk plus cry. And within few mins. I will be ok. May 2008 be another fun filled year for us, for u and ur hubby, ur family and ofcoz.. coming April/May, we’ll welcome junior to the world.

2. Congratulation to craziest belo gf.. Rin. She texted me last nite informing that she got the job at Fitness First. I didn’t ask her wads the job title. But im so glad and happy for her. The long awaited job eva. Tho she didn’t manage to go to Etihad Airways, she finally got this job. The environment dat suits her well, really really well. I hope she gets wad she aim for. The another reason for me to be really happy bout this news is becoz all along.. I was the one who thinks she should get this job and I really want her to get this job. She applied months months months ago.. and finally she got it. I am indeed surprise for my strong gut feeling all along. Yea!!

3. Within few more days, I am turning 25. wow! Tho some are not prepared to go to that number or even 20, or 24. but im glad and besyukur that I am still here alive and happy being with my close ones. A new number, shall be a new meaning for me. My aim for 2008 is to save loads of money, source and plan well for my wedding, work harder (thinking of working 2 jobs), learn to relax, be happier, sillier, prettier, toned up my body, and ofcoz be closer to Allah swt. Insya’allah.

I am really excited to start planning for our wedding. Tho it is indeed very stressing. Insya’allah everything will go smoothly. Amin.

Take care ppl. Have a nice weekend. It is the last weekend for 2007 you noe. Have a blast!!

Wishes...

It was a mad show on 23/12/07 by Freaky Z. madness.coolest.for 2007.

Today there will be floetry at 6pm. 31st, countdown party at wdlands.

And ya.. shades have arrived yesterday. can’t wait to get hold of it. Lets go ‘boria’ with the shades. Same design different colour. Yessa!!

Some wishes I would like to make here..

1. Happy advance bday to my bestie, Zulie. Tomorrow she will turn 25. Thanks for all your support this year.. for being there and just be yourself. The one who won’t pujuk me when I cry but simple just ask me.. “nie apasal pulak..” and u will let me just talk plus cry. And within few mins. I will be ok. May 2008 be another fun filled year for us, for u and ur hubby, ur family and ofcoz.. coming April/May, we’ll welcome junior to the world.

2. Congratulation to craziest belo gf.. Rin. She texted me last nite informing that she got the job at Fitness First. I didn’t ask her wads the job title. But im so glad and happy for her. The long awaited job eva. Tho she didn’t manage to go to Etihad Airways, she finally got this job. The environment dat suits her well, really really well. I hope she gets wad she aim for. The another reason for me to be really happy bout this news is becoz all along.. I was the one who thinks she should get this job and I really want her to get this job. She applied months months months ago.. and finally she got it. I am indeed surprise for my strong gut feeling all along. Yea!!

3. Within few more days, I am turning 25. wow! Tho some are not prepared to go to that number or even 20, or 24. but im glad and besyukur that I am still here alive and happy being with my close ones. A new number, shall be a new meaning for me. My aim for 2008 is to save loads of money, source and plan well for my wedding, work harder (thinking of working 2 jobs), learn to relax, be happier, sillier, prettier, toned up my body, and ofcoz be closer to Allah swt. Insya’allah.

I am really excited to start planning for our wedding. Tho it is indeed very stressing. Insya’allah everything will go smoothly. Amin.

Take care ppl. Have a nice weekend. It is the last weekend for 2007 you noe.

Have a blast!!

its a saturday and im stuck at work. As usual rite??

anihoos. it is suppose to be halfday work today but yours truly had loads to do. plus i was on leave yesterday. goin back home soon. am waiting for 1630.

tired. tired. hungry. but nevatheless im glad i complete my work. i have to stay in order to prepare for the necessary facilities for coming monday training. frm 8 to 1130am. boohoo. 25th is a PH. therefore continue again from 26th to 28th. triple boohoo.

had a great chat wid Yoi*e earlier. we gotta meet soon ok babe and don wori i noe ive been booked super advance for next yr Pameran Pengantin. so the boys wont have any excuse for not goin to that super crowded place. *winks*

going straight home. i have no plans. gonna rest at home. be a bummer. i guess i'll do the revising again and sleep early again tonite. while others are out. snapping pics in town and in search of a birthday present *winks* to my gf zulie. thanx eh. kau la sahabat. u tricked me upon asking wad i want. and wen i said mine, u decided not to tell wad u want for ur coming bday. idiot! Hmmph...

ok time check. 1611. few more mins to go. i shall do the packing now. to bring or not to bring laptop home to do work from home......

think twice

thrice..

NAH. forget it.

wednesday evening. just me and the cute pregnant gf. kranji THIS FASHION. nutin nice.
train to admiralty.pasar malam. RANOR burger ramli. bought 3 tops. $10 each.

cheapo?!

yessa and i don give a fuck.

makes me happy. purple polo-t, lil miss chatterbox t and 'I LIKE MUSIC' top.

happy happy.
:)

thursday. Hari Raya Aidiladha. Family. Relatives. Cusins. Hubby. Nasi minyak. Ayam masak merah. Kueh tart. Coke.

NICE.

Friday. on leave. Jurong point wid gf again. Mondo pink flats. black vest. grey jeans. i am one happy girl.

:) :) :)

Salam Takziah to one of my gdfren. to his family. May she rest in peace. In loving memory of your mum. You noe i am just a phn call away if u need someone to talk to.

17th Dec 07

I realised im getting cranky-er each day as I start my day at work. as soon as the clock stiked 0730. I could feel the stress level rising up each hour. Plus i have a very bad bowel problem. I am left in charge today as my manager is working from home and my colleague is on holiday in Macau and Hong Kong with his family. Left me and my other 3 colleagues.

Still have loads of co-ordinating to do. conduct trainings from tmr onwards. Weekend passed so fast. As i sigh infront of the clock last nite at 2100 and said "and so its back to monday already.."

Please excuse my numerous complaints. I cant help it but feel really-really tired.

18th Dec 07

things are going well it seems. i guess stressing does helps sometimes. stressing means to be extra kan-chong (ok who doesnt noe that i am indeed a very kan-chong person).

had a walk down geylang serai wid him. walking together under the rain. bought 2 more books. alhamdulillah. somehow i feel at ease. he finally got wad he has been looking for. but yet he stills wants the original. Had dinner at Teh Tarik. walked back to the mrt station feeling hot inside. thanks to the teh. lesson learnt. don drink hot tea when u think its a rainy day. yup!

will be meeting our advisor lata for the Prushield policy. gonna 'chop' comfy seat at starbucks wdlands. kiasu nk mampos. well pardon my 'kiasu-ness'. or atleast i will nt be reserving the seat by placing a packet of tissue paper or ezlink card. oh pls ive seen it. wad a way to do it. so tk pandai.


19th Dec 07
and so one more day to Hari Raya Haji. well some may not really find it auspicious but for me it is. it may be alil different compared to Aidilfitri. but Aidil Ad'ha is more special. mom and dad sure will wanna walk the memory lane once again as they watch them caught in tele, going round the kaa'ba.

sidetrack.

as i began to see them almost every morning. every day. its beginning to make me feel annoyed. irritatted. and more of those unpleasant words that could fit the vocabulary. no offence girls. just that ya'll are way too much. fluanting every bit of your new outfit to wrk. and hey like we give a damn to all that. afta all, here are all nts workers, uncles, pakciks, and more. and one more thing. even if there are good looking young available men here.. for all i noe, they are least interested. coz if there are some hot juicy news, i will eventually heard it from any of them. so far.. none asking bout ya'll.

the hot buns have mostly left the company. yet there are still attention seekers.
sungguh tk faham. aku tau la tetek and bontot kau besar pe. aku ye kecik aje.

jeles u noe!

i for one, don mind being slackish. and so i don really care especially during this rainy season. tshirt, jeans and sweaters are all i think about. furthermore 2007 is ending soon. this is my only way to go for the 'tk kuasa' attitude. honestly. my hair is in a mess

EVERY SINGLE DAY.

i donno wad to do wid it. yet still love the color. (yes many still do!haha) bt hey.. 2008. new hairstyle probably. as i turned 25 in 4 days afta new yr. wad matters most. i still look like as though i am underage. having to show my ID almost to anywhere restricted to 18 and above. thanks eh. though i get alil pissed off sometimes. it just makes me look younger.

and 1 1/2 yr to go to my big day. 2008 will be the planning year.

and oh ya ppl. this sunday.

Came across this link at one of my fren's comment box and I knew it will be some awesome shit whenever it came from her.

Therefore I copied the link and i was nuting but really impressed. the pictures taken are the coolest shit eva.

Wheneva i saw photographer who take gd pics, they just inspire me more. to be able to capture a perfect moment/shot. mesmerised by each movement, colours. a satisfying feeling of a photographer that i've long to be in.

i cant wait to have my own. my very own. to go practice wit those who have it too. so we can practice together and learn from each other.

Click CUBA to view more.

feel all gd on a saturday morning. it just feel so damn nice. maybe part of it was dat i walked from my place to the pick up point at woodlands mrt station. so damn pampered for 5 str8 days wen my bro sent us to work. bt unfortunately, car rented out to my aunt. my aunts, uncles and my parents should be on their way to Malacca now.

so walking briskly to the pickup point was somehow REFRESHING.

it is a morning exercise to me minus the droplets of sweat. =p

ive not been shopping for a very long time. bt somehow yesterday i managed to get myself a black Nike Cap. and finally ive decided wad to wear for Zoukout later. Yeah!

Since I wasnt able to sell my Nikon Coolpix P1 for the price I wanted, I couldn't purchase a Sony T20. So

I shall stick to P1 til I have enuff to purchase the T20. sad. sad. sad. but I hope I can purchase a SLR camera next year Febuary. Hope I could purchase it paying it FULL amount.

as 2008 will be a planning year for us.

1. Planning
2. Sourcing
3. Booking
4. Marriage Course
5. Apply for House
6. Save more more more more money.

1 year and 6 months to go after 1st January 08. (stress)

tgif.

tho i have to report to work on saturdays. i act as tho fridays are saturdays. today is no different except that i'm clide in skirt, tshirt and sneaks. *huge smiles*

zoukout tmr.

tho it will be my 3rd year to zoukout. there will be alil different touch this yr. instead of just 2 of us. few XS boys will be joining us too. i hope more fun. more silly antics. more silliness. more punch lines. more pictures. more irritatiness from them. lastly.

more of souljaboy crank that yank dance.

PERIOD.

cant wait.

but 1st. meeting arin later. mr dear dj wanna lookout for outfit for tmr. oh mr vain. :)

have fun all. to who will be goin zoukout tmr. have fun. say HI if u see me. ok.
(as tho there will be ppl saying HI to me. =p)

btw im still fickled on wad to wear tmr afta ive decided wad to wear wen i tried few outfits last nite.

(smacks head hard!)

when u are bored.(like me now) do this dance. many are doin it. even in SG.

XS boys and girl are doing it.

so do it do it. :)

though there were hiccups along the way. i assure you that things will be better the next time round. its a learning experience afterall. humans do make mistake. a long due planning does works, but in the end if the management is fucked up. ders nutin we can do bout it.

doesnt mean some of us look rowdy or fact was most of US/them are in the malay community. I don blame the public if they say We are rowdy kids simply becoz we stood arnd in big groups and start to make noise. Bt one thing is. some of US/Them can still pay for drinks. damn it. do we look like we don earn a living?! Mutherfucker.

That aside. Though few of them did went off without a say/two, its all gd I hope.

Walking down to Arab street with 3 boys does crack me up. Thanx Shino, Chavito and Ruxta for making my walk down worth it. and thanks for my gd sense of direction, we were not lost else Chinatown will be our destination thanx to shino. And I believe I have to contain myself again, else I will be "Ah Lian" once again. commented by Ruxta himself. but honestly boys were making me half way cookoo.

End the nite enjoying Tuna+Mayo Sandwich. seeing them practicing their soulja boy dance routine. and next will be the SpongeBob dance. crazee la.

o and Im glad they collect a cute sum of donations to be donated to the kids back in Euthopia. They are also holding up a booth at Wdlands Civic Center.

Next up. 08/12/07. Zoukout 2007. Siloso Beach Resort. Yessa!!

ok and so he's really sure that i am fine. just fine. altho hey u gotta admit sometimes u adore a "wow-wow-wee" body curvy woman. rite?.. wahaha.

curve always remind me bout dear tina. how fickle she culd be wen she said she wanna lose weight after seeing me lost mine. but thankfully she watched beyonce music video and love her curve and wanna keep hers. dats a total relieve. i love tina the way she is. slim or curvy. doesnt matter. wad matters. she still has that long legs i so love in a girl. ok it kinda sound weird. bt long sexy legs does means alot to me. at least to me ok. to u. i donno.

then came the jealous portion i was mentioning in my earlier entry. hey its all bout da boobs and bumbs. jealous coz i don have them. i mean not totally. bt i don have MUCH of them to flaunt. god damn u are so rite. pantat ku tepos ok. and those hand-palm grabbing boobs to die for. i so want them. ok boobs i gotta salute RINN for having nice nice boobs. not dat ive nt seen them before. oopps. haha. yes. i have seen them. grab them too. its a nice feeling to be honest.

ok i may sound kinda weird in this entry. but honestly i envy them girls for having those nice ones. bt if they are tall, that's a plus point. cute sweet sexy face. a plus point. definately. YEA!

but that doesnt mean i don like mine. i love mine. i gotta love mine aniway. else I will feel awful every single day. as long as I'm healthy, I'm fine rite. just a simple next door girl. who kinda look sweet and demure. wahahhah. ok. gotta say dat. complimenting urself does boost up ur confidence, self-esteem and EGO.

so ppl. love ur body. love urself. but that doesnt mean u cant envy others for having nice assets.

ok i gotta admit. i am fucking jealous. how am i suppose to accept all these. crap!

and so i was over reacting bout da whole agenda. well tell me something new bout dat.i am always over reacting. i was even reminded to stop hearing the voices in my head. thats for a gd cause ofcoz. somehow each time an argument was brought up. another matter will be brought up too. interlinking matters will be colliding and joint becoming one whole big matter. but there is always a catch to every argument. that we will be lovey dovey once again. you can neva underestimate the power of love.

exchanging smses in between meetings does make me things much much clearer. that talk on the phn does help this pee brain of mine. contracting every minute due to the headache and not forgetting my stuffy nose.

sadly why do I always have to upset him. why is it often me making the mistakes all over again. not realising that I've done it before and repeatingly doing it. getting scolded again. brought up the matter again. argue again. well all goes in a repeat process. but..

he still loves me the same and that's why I adore everybit of him.

as I'm finishing this line, we are ok. fine. no more argument. this and that. I guess I gotta be seriously thinking straight. and not to over react. but hmm.. will that eva change in me? being petty and oversensitive. i donno. i am trying hard though. but thank you for giving me the chance to..

from wad i see now. they are one person. they are the same person. therefore I see them as ONE. The person I love. but I know you long enuff compared to I know him. Still you often remind me without me there is no him.

to be honest dear, without your full determination, there will be no HIM.

Hasrin Hasmoon and DJ Ruxta. I love you both. so much.

happy to noe that i have 4 more days left of my leave. yessa!
mite be taking 1 day off da day afta hari raya haji. and da rest i culd make use of it end of da year or most probably next yr. jan 4th and 5th. i guess. damn im turning 25 real fast.

oh yea. suddenly having the tot to stay low profile kinda works afta all. afta being told da truth. words does hurt. stabbed me hard. with da headache i had since yesterday, thanks to the remarks i got, it just worsen the ache. i culd somehow feel my blood gushin up to my pee brain. fuck. but i did gd somehow. i wasnt being harsh nor rude. just kept quiet til i reach my door step. best remedy is to be silent? well it does work for me.

for wad i know now. i don exist. from the very 1st place and i believe i will neva be. therefore. no point making my existence known. to me they are the same person. bt da fact is, i failed to see that they are completely different. how stupid can i be, not to see the real thing. well i guess.i got them mix up. a person with a split personality. i should hav known better that i fall for the other one. not him.

its pretty much clearer now that i am da stupid fool. starting frm today. i noe who i am. and where i should be and should do/dont do. period!

i slept over da matter and waking up still feelin hurt. i dreamt of being very angry and my head is still in pain. well partly becoz im not feelin well. :(

well wadeva it is. i wuld like to thank him for making me feel existed in some ways. i shall continue being in love wid him and not u. coz im beginning not to know u animore. though my eyes see one, but the truth is. there are two.

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catwalk is as tough as marching. i swear. but with heels ofcoz. it was my 2nd class yesterday and im somehow satisfied wid my walk but just my walk. i need to practice more. especially the pose and turn part. gotta think of tyra banks. only that this is more to bridal wear tho.

next 2 weeks will be another class on photography and more pose. cant wait. to tink of it. am i dat girly to begin wid? i hate comparing myself wid others. somehow it does makes me feel insecure of myself. but i gotta admit. i do wish i was tall like her, have her eyes, her boobs, butts, hair, etc.. especially sitting alone in da train, does make my eyes to wander each time i saw a hot chick. once again, another confession. i love to ogle on girls. call me a lesbo or bi. one ting for sure, i noe im nt. :D

i lost some weight. but wen i looked myself in the mirror, having bones showing off. i began to get a lil paranoid. as why am i still looking the same afta eating my dinner after 10pm last nite. den next 2 mornings, wen i woke up. same thing. saw myself and saw fats around the waist area. left handers coming out and stuffs like dat. den i turned PARANOID. u see. i cant make up my mind. wad do i really want. wad makes me happy. its all gd to be 55kg. i used to be 58kg. bt now? gosh. i have yet to make my way to stand on dat machine.


i need to lose in order to look gd. in order to work. to have assignments. bt looks and figure don usually work our way up. personality does counts too. i still have loads to learn. from the experience ones.


for now. im just loving it. looking at her. her cute face. her height. her hair. her legs. her height. she is my catwalk teacher. hot aint she.

oh did i mentioned. she pelat "R". so cute. so cute the way she called out my name.

Opening minds and ears about poverty
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26/11/07

It was a tiring weekend. but i enjoyed myself. I had fun. I helped. hehe. I was not the lazy ikin i used to be. I vacuumned da living room, carried the sofa and more. (rajin la konon)..

But it was all worth it. Congratulations to my cusin Lediana.Finally she's married to Rahmat. The most irritatin couple who find it amusing to irritate the hell outta me. but its all gd. *smiles*

Their wedding affair was somewad I would describe as 90% melayu.traditionally. and I love it. From the Sri Mahligai Pemain Musik to the singers, to the dancers and da highlight of all event. The trishaw. Yup!

Nice Nice one. Many of us took pic with it.

Overall. All of us, put in all the effort to make their day more meaningful.. FunFun. 2 down. next yr. 2 more cusins. and 2009. 2 more cusins. Wow. Wow. Seriously aku dah stress!!!

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Once again, congratulation to my dear cusin.

65 hope presents:

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and tmr we're celebrating my cusin's wedding.

therefore me and ruxta wont be able to be der for the floetry event.

tmr's theme will be Warisan Melayu. i guess its da best time to put on my baju kurung songket tmr. tonite will be a busy fun nite. cant wait for dem to make fun of me. or best still. i wanna tease the bride to be tonite.

how bout asking her wad she intend to do on her 1st nite.
wee....

Happy 27th Birthday to my 3rd sista in law. Nurirdawatie.
Stay Hot.

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We often quarrel. She will bite, pinch or shout at me. She loves to put on my heels and slippers. She loves to lie on my mattress, pillows and cover herself with my blanket.

and she just turned 2 years old on monday. and o ya. she loves to take pictures.

Happy 2nd Birthday to my youngest niece. Erni Haryani.

Based from my past entry. Syukur Alhamdulillah it was not cancerous. Amin.

&

Innalillah Wa inna lillahi rojiun.

Ruxta's uncle, Wak Kassim passed away this morning.
May Allah bless his soul. Amin.

im honoured to have you as my fren... from a fren to me.


Thank you my fren. Whatever the result is, lets hope and pray its not wad u think it is.

feeling tired. fedup. stress. pissed off.

lesson learnt. dont 'selit daun' info/details bou someting i don wanna noe afta da whole serious working conversation.

finally ive uploaded some pictures to my multipy. to those who wanna view some pics. u may go this site narayumi.multiply


head still in pain. since yesterday. i hit my head on ruxta's pintu besi. sakit ok. but i have no one to blame but myself. tanks alot nurul for being urself. the usual slenge one. bah.


have u eva seen with ur own eyes. twice. this yr. to see someone being hit by a fast moving bus. and u were onboard on da bus. trust me. da 1st time. early this yr. da bus i was in. hit a mini lorry. hey blame the lorry driver. for not signalin. furthermore he was nt suppose to make his U turn. gosh. the lorry spun. to da other side to the road. glass shattered. but gladly no one was hurt.

another thing happened tis morning. this time. not a lorry. its a person. a bangladeshi worker. it was running heavily. he stood in between 2 lorries. obviously no one culd see him. bus drove fast. den suddenly. he dashed thro. it happened too fast. he was hit alil. bt driver managed to brake on time. he was not hurt. instead. he was able to cross to da other yard's main gate. my heart skipped abit. i swore it was damn fucking scary. no doubt.

it was a cool set last saturday. XS.One Regiment has always been hype during shows. this time. i put aside the dgcam and hit the camcorder. still i suck.furthermore lighting was bad. not da camcorder but the stage. not full force for da regiment. wid 20 of us. went to laupasat. camwhoring. den i was sent hm while da rest continued chilling at wdlands civic. doing Soulja Boy Superman Dance. Next gig. 18.11.07. Republic Poly.


it was my 1st class.and now i noe how difficult it is to walk slowly. wid the correct posture. pose. pace. cross legged. expression. shoulder. gosh i culd go on. im glad im learning. may not be my dream passion. bt i believe i culd excel in wadeva i do.

it shows how long ive been stiff like a stick. no elegance and flow. i missed dancing. i reali do. if only i have more time. i wuld love to join a dance club. ive been thinking of dancing all these days. i still cant make up my mind. oh gosh.


chatted wid gf this morning. we realised how small da world is. a guy to another guy who related to a girl. a guy who wanna noe another girl. a guy is a girl ex. exbf msnin/called a girl. haha. funny.

i need to practice. full length mirror. 4 inch heels. and a book on my head. hehe.

27/10/07: Beraya wid Polymates

We have not done this for the longest time and finally this year, with Tina in SG, we all managed to squeeze our time to spend Raya together. Despite my 1 month in advance to spend dat very day wid XS Clan, I decided to give it a miss and join my friends instead. GFF was full force dat day.. Miss spending sex talk just the 5 of us. Yea nutin but share sex hot juicy topics.






I’ve yet to upload the pics to Multiply for Sher to grab them. Tahun depan bole tk? =p

28/10/07: Beraya wid Ruxta and parents

A trip up to visit my parents at Pasir Ris. As usual, good food no doubt bout dat… * winks * Sayang mak…

29/10/07: Ruxta’s 25th Bday

Present him a collage of pics taken this yr during his showcases/competitions and present him H.I.M black leather wallet. Blackforest cake. Dinner at Swensens. Love you Ruxta. Loads.


30/10/07 to 2/11/07: Preparing for Perjumpaan Hari Raya

Busy preparing for Perjumpaan Hari Raya for my company. Stayed over at the company bungalow on Friday nite to do the deco. Slept at 5am. But was fun, laughing my ass off dat nite. Til I actually pasted my company name senget.. Hahaha.


3/11/07: Perjumpaan Hari Raya

Satisfying Nite. Tiredness paid off. No doubt..

8/11/07: Istana Raya 07

Had a simple assignment over at Taman Warisan yesterday. For Istana Raya 07. Just be ‘pemanis’ to the event, and assist VIPs. Met up wid Ruxta in the evening, Sim Lim walking, ZamZam murtabak and Suntec Starbucks Coffeebreak.

My Dream Dias



Next event. 10/11/07: Bedsty Music Presents Magnolius.Playden.

been KIV-ing due to life getting mundane wid work ofcoz. nonetheless, I pysked that I get to meet wid my lovely gf frm Doha today. Took half day leave frm work just to spend time wid her. Despite the heat, we continued cam whoring and we ended the meet-up wid a well deserve manicure. :) Thanks for spendin the time wid me Tina.

Noticed the fan? bought it at Arab Street. Due to the rapid humid heatness. HOT! and I brought her to Taman Warisan. Hehe. Coz she claimed it was her 1st time there. Tina step tourist and myself is the guide. =p

i intend to go to RP tmr morning since I will be on leave. I wanna check a new sports introduced in SG but this new sport started off in Brazil. Kinda interesting. Plus wid Samba music. Woohoo. To know more, visit this site. http://www.bossaball.com/. If you are free tmr morning, do come down to Republic Poly, at 930am @ Basketball court.

1st day was spent at Pasir Ris crib where relatives came over.

My loving cusins were all there too.

As usual, we would seek forgiveness then the next min afta dat, hell yea. All back to square 1. 'Next year bole mintak maaf lagi'..

Sometimes I wonder will we ever grow up?! If you ask me.. I will say NO. Definately not me.

I will grow up to be a silly wife, daughter in law and Mummy.. Hahaha!

Whole day I helped my parents and in the evening off I go to CCK.

My raya affair was a simple one.

Come this weekend will be my 1st raya outing for this yr Raya.

Sat with Ruxta's Family and Sun with my own homies; Familia..

Many things to do this week. Work has been piling up. Being so unfriendly. and afta wad happened to me on monday, damn im so pissed at myself. im so dead beat rite now. work work work. im gonna take my leave today at 430pm and will be back only on tuesday. dugaan berpuasa..

loads of things to do back home. last nite, i did pasang the curtains. tonite some more cleaning up need to be done. but need to do some errands tonite together wid ruxta.

To all Muslims, Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir Batin.

nutin serious. bt juz dat my hp play dead on me. thanks alot my dear z610i. out of many time, y do u have to do this to me now especially this month. arrgghh bingit!

gonna send my baju kebaya for alteration today. and gosh, im so freakin impatient to get a kain batik. else another 'rushing last min cari kain batik' moment this yr. haha. ok fyi, if this happen again. this will be the 3rd year. don blame me. ruxta and myself just wanna get the same pair of kain batik. *love*

ok here i am at wdlands civic centre drinking ice milo. Gosh its freezing cold here. im here to accompany ruxta going thro the cpf investment thingy wid my advisor. i am bringin more frens to invest their cpf and to go thro my advisor. so far i have 2. i am indeed needing more. its all for your future people. its nt for me u noe...


ok small world afta all. as im typin this. my advisor find ruxta's father's name so familiar. asked if he has a sister. haha. pickup line u think?! no! happen dat kak mamas is his fren. somehow we are all in da same circle of frens. fyi, my advisor is my gf's brother in law. kewl kn kewl kn!!! ahhahaha..


seriously, after hearing this digits over and over again scares the whole shit outta me. i bet bringin 2 more frens will make me freak out MORE. bt its all gd as it is brings me back to the reality of MONEY! where money matters most...


oh ya.. went to geylang yesterday. saw amy. i hugged her. long time no see dat budak kecik. hehehe. too bad i didnt saw my cusins and my dad. my dad was there looking for kebab. hehe. bapakbapak.. siapa yg nk makan kebab tu. u don even each much. sometimes i wonder y dad spent alot of dough for food. juz food.


we bought our baju. simple basic black. our baju cost less than $50 each. amazingly huh. it just happen that we are both not in the festive mood due to some issues. but we are more excited to bake the cookies. hehe. our bakery stuffs cozt more than our baju. kewlness shit. bt wad matters, wadeva we wear, we still look good together. =p

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alil side track. i had a cyber chat wid my dear cusin. i mean we all went thro da same afta engage life. trust me my few months afta engage were a total ups and downs. bt wad matters most dat we have each other and we did our best to work things out. and alhamdulillah all goin well now.


therefore,my advice to my dear cusin, stay strong and don let her bring u down wid her words. no offence to all 18 yr old gerls but to me, she is a total nuisance. kept telling to stay away frm u both, but each time her comments in ur frenster are so call ATTENTION SEEKER! i have nutin against her, but she just happen to get on my nerves. she is not helping whereas making things more complicated. gosh. u have nt been in da situation, don advice other ppl as though u've been der done dat kinda thing BITCH! arrgggh im so pissed off. den again. she is still young, and her words are going into deaf ears. PERIOD!!

i was suppose to be in da office @ this tyme. but i decided to say "go to h*ll" to my work for a tyme being. i so need a freaking break to this body. ok ppl lets say "like finally!!"..

and finally today i'm heading down to geylang to get the instant flour to make cookies for raya and get our baju raya. on a different note, will be goin der wid ruxta and his parents. yeahness. no train rides today. future daddy-in-law is driving. :)

red or black. red or black. decision decision.. Hmm..

o yeah and gonna get the Project Pop cd. that Metal Vs Dugem song is so stuck in my head. thanx alot eh DJ Ruxta. =p

enjoy ppl.

Deep down i think i know how he feels. though all bad things had happened and still happening now, he will pray for her safety. no matter wad, tears and more phn calls being directed to him, he will still say NO. but i noe bapak means well. he does. but again its all boils down to ego and pride of a brother. Period.

Bt i was having another view if dad were to say YES. eventually, raya will be totally different tis yr. bt then again. knowing dad, he wont. so my hopes and dreams to have them all together. back together. happy together like 10 years ago, once again is just a dream that wont come true for now. y was i not surprised wen mak was thinkin da same as i was. mom and daughter. think alike..

now dat this fails. next will be on my bigday. if i cant have all. i would just love to have my boys around. together wid their partners. we all have grown up and not knowing who is who animore. things change, we change. we don even say HI anymore nor even smiles. If bapak objects to my decision, i guess i will walk around wid another solution to make this happen. my only request for my big day.

i hope she is doing fine there. with all da supervision by others. sorry he cant be der. he don wanna be der. but trust me. trust him. u are in his prayers. how bad things were, i noe bapak has a gd heart. its just how ppl manage his feelings. dats all...

Amin.

Last saturday, my family gathered and have iftar @ wdlands crib. Usually we do it on the 1st weekend of ramadhan but due to some unforseen circumstances, it was postponed til last sat. loads of food and we managed to surprise my lil nephew, Faris. He was so happy to see the cake. It was an advance celebration for him though, that is y he was even more surprised. :) we all know he will grow up and break loads of girls heart. come on look at him.. at this young age, young girls like to come up to him, but he simply ran away. he is just shy...


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who says money cant buy happiness?

well i used to have said that money CANT buy happiness but then again we do need money to survive. seriously, its not a joke wen i finally decided to invest my cpf last nite. the amount of money to be use for medical fees, old age, retirement and etc. oh and not forgetting getting my own place after marriage.

somehow for now, i can finally breathe fact that ive done that. i do see a gd point doing it and i advice who has not done it, to do it. because starting next yr, cant invest in ur cpf anymore. its like Now or Never. If you would want me to recommend my advisor, please do feel free to inform me ok. drop me a tag or email or sms me.

Besides that, I decided to take up something I neva tot I would do. Its still grey now however, I will do my best to achieve this. Hopefully this will help much in saving more money for my big day. Insya'allah.

This year, Ramadhan feels so different. for me atleast.
and I believe Syawal will be the same too.
The tension, the anger, the grudge, the disrespectful.......
I do not know how to put in words.
But I believe, I'm immuned to the situation.
I hope for the better. for them in near future.
I hope this year, they will be celebrating it in a new place.

but stilll the anger lives.. how will the future be...
we were all once a happy family.....

it is still too early to say nor predict.. assumptions are all im doing rite now.
shall wait for the day.. the day of new freedom together with separation..........

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Side track..

Happy 14th Birthday to my niece, Erna Natasha and Happy 12th Birthday to hubby's nephew Izwan.

and not forgetting...

An advance 23rd birthday to my home bitch.wahaha. the sizzling hot "i love my hair" Tina. Lurve u babe.. Muacks!!

We had a simple dinner together at Earle Swensen and walked around the huge mall (Vivocity), donut and coffee time while chilling and head home.

mine - Chicken Delight
his - Prime Ribs


Chocolate Cinnamon and Hot Cocoa

Despite my heels are not 'meant for walking' (killing me), i had a great time spending time wid him. it was afterall our 8th yr anniversary. (smiles)....

.LOVE.